ahleah.

2012-02-08T22:30:00.002+08:00

SOOOOOOOO, the week started off so hectic! on monday i had a presentation i was so nervous about! but alhamdulilah, i did well! on tuesday had OC LEC QUIZ 3 which im obviously gonna fail. yay, sucks to be me yaaaa. after lec quiz had jap role play and french oral. yeapp, right after another. in a row. mmhmmmm thats just the way TP rolls. had cell b quiz today, which duh, wrote tons of nonsense. i dont even know why im telling you guise this.

AS has this anonymous rose giving thing for valentines and i hop ANL/ITAS BOY sends me one *faints* lol speaking of him, havent seen him in ages! shall dress presentably tmr since its thursday! 70% chance of seeing him YAY. ok i should stop this sounds creepy.

hope i can meet zhaffy on friday and watch a movie/whtever with shahyen after. hmmmmmmm sounds like a plan?

2012-02-01T20:59:00.003+08:00

another update earlier than expected, just a note for february.

hi february,
whaddup? our friend january was okay with me, i think she was just making up for all your other friends that were mean to me in 2011. i had tons of fun in january and also got some serious work done. i just wish things could get easier, february. like how it was. can you do that for me? pretty please with a diamond ring on top?

please let me have a clear head and focus on my school for the main exam. i'll try to stop procrastinating too, i will. its just that i get so distracted easily! so how bout a pact? you be nice and i'll crown you best month for 2012. sounds like a plan?

looking forward to the end,
me.

ok, told you guys alrdy i need psychological help. i'll end of with pictures from january. xoxo (WHICH REMINDS ME GOSSIP GIRL IS GEORGINA SPARKS?!)

2012-01-29T23:29:00.002+08:00

ok this is just a rant after so many weeks and you can skip it altogether. don't say i didnt warn you.

WHAT I MISS

PRIMARY SCHOOL!
i miss eating the 60cents nasi lemak that makes me full and happy. plus the 80cents pizza~ i miss drinking justea peach(or smth else it was orange packaging) and lepaking in school. i DONT miss acting like a bigshot gangster HAHAHAH that one cannot make it one lahh. i miss shafiq mathirah munirah haziqah and how close we were! i miss sending love letters to shahyen in class and secretly staying in school so late just to watch him in soccer training.

SECONDARY SCHOOL
i miss nothing much. just the fact that life was easy and i seem to be breezing thru my grades. only Allah knows.

now in poly i feel like everything is SO OVERWHELMING that the slightest thing can upset me or make me break down inside. i dont like crying in front of others, i dont like showing im weak. and having adhe in hospital for more than six months has trained me how to keep everything in and let it out when im in my room alone. hais.

LIFE MOVES ON GUYS

p/s srsly just skip this post. it doesn't even make sense and the paragraphs dont link.

p//s what i really miss is being with s alone and enjoying each other's company instead of being apart because of work/school/other nonsense commitments etc etc.

2012-01-13T23:06:00.002+08:00

if there's one thing my past taught me, it's being aware when you're about to get lied to or cheated on or made a fool of. something particular happened to me and S today and altho i might not show it, it's a big deal to me. i honestly dont understand why the hiding if there's nothing wrong. I SWEAR THE EXACT SAME THING HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE. and im pretty sure i dont want it to end the same way. sometimes i wish boys could feel what we feel, to know what its like to be in our shoes. how certain things hurt. cause right now, i just dont know.....anything anymore.

2012-01-07T02:32:00.012+08:00

Me and shahyen finally went to Night Safari!

It's not focused but i LOVE how i was looking at him and our hands around each other's.

i think i was telling him 'siapa last sampai, babi' HAAHAH

click here for more!

ok lah shuddup nobody cares.

Not abandoning my blog just yet!

I'm done with the first week of school and have to get used to waking up early again noooooo! Term tests results are out and.... meh.

Bought a few stuffs from F21 for school tho and i have to stop spending my money!!! Just spent over 150buxx to perm my hair!! yes yaayyyy i finally did it! but i dont know, quite....... neutral about the results :/ but Shahyen luvs it so im okay with it!

what else......

oh! TP open house must come k! im not involved actually HAHAHA no point :< wish im more active as how i was in secondary school. miss those times!

ok lah bye.

naturally boring.

2011-12-27T20:23:00.003+08:00

Ted: But the most important expression of all…
(shows picture of a very angry Robin)
Barney: Whoa…
Ted: Flared nostril ridges, wide unblinking eyes. If you ever, EVER, see this face, Barney, run. And don’t take a picture of it, she will punch you… and you will cry… for the third time… that night.

[My Robin impersonation]

I'm really pissed at what happened this morning. i got so excited, all dressed up and made up only to be let down with a disappointment. i hate when these things happen URGH NMDIJMSJAKM CIFJMLKJ N yes it makes me want to type random alphabets from my keyboard. unlike robin, guns, hockey and emperor penguins do not distract me so i went home and sulk.

today went by fast and i did what i did yesterday - nothing. so....TADAAAA i started blogging again! i'll prolly stop blogging after this post. or not. i'll try to make updating my blog regularly my new year's resolution. honestly, i dont know why it's on my resolution list either. it's like people stopped blogging because of tumblr, twitter etc etc. not that they suck or anything. also, it gives haters more reason to hate.

SO HERE IT IS HATERS- STALK ME ALL YOU WANT IF IT GIVES YOU PLEASURE.

PEACE OUT (peace out? yes i'm this lame.)

ps: daddy bought me a new cam so expect lots of pics!

2011-04-01T23:37:00.002+08:00

you know i was so excited to reactivate my blog cause i had sooo much to say? now i have none. L-O-S-E-R

2011-03-31T16:40:00.003+08:00

a year ago, around this hour, i felt helpless. i was beside you, and i didnt want to leave. it felt like all hope was lost. but i believed. you believed. and look where you are now. eventhough you're far.. even if you dont think of me often, know that my prayers are always with you and there is no way i would forget someone like you. no way.

youre up and running now.. and when you feel down at times, look back and think of the hurdles you have overcomed. you know you can and you will x x

never moving on tho

2011-03-31T10:26:00.003+08:00

maybe i just wished that you'd fight for me. that you think that i'm important over whatever you think now is important. and one day you'd realise i'm not here anymore. but then, you're not even here now.

2011-03-31T00:07:00.001+08:00

" everytime i try to move on, you're right there. "

Taylor Swift - Last Kiss (Boyce Avenue and Megan & Liz acoustic cover) o...

2011-03-31T00:02:00.000+08:00

2011-03-29T23:22:00.001+08:00

it's a blair waldorf world out here

2011-03-29T23:17:00.000+08:00

guess who's back.

2011-03-29T22:58:00.002+08:00

hihihiihi,

i miss blogging so much macam..... so i activated my account. yaaayyy! nobody really knows i've started blogging again and i feel real sneaky hehehhee.

2010-09-06T15:44:00.002+08:00

hi!

it's been ages! just to keep you in the know, i've moved!

http://thereal-a.tumblr.com

so relink please!

♥

2010-06-06T13:46:00.003+08:00

my life is going haywire.

2010-06-02T08:50:00.001+08:00

i had my uniform on.

i drank my milk.

got me shoes on.

i was good to go.

i opened the door,

i went back inside.

IF MOMMA SAYS DON'T GO TO SCHOOL,

YOU DON'T NEED TO!

2010-06-02T07:23:00.002+08:00

lol okay hi.
i am obsessed with Justin Bieber and i love it because i am the weirdest person on Earth.
yay.

2010-05-29T14:20:00.001+08:00

i love you.
always, forever.

2010-05-25T23:21:00.001+08:00

i can't wait for the 29th.

i wanna post pictures lah!

cb.

2010-05-24T16:53:00.002+08:00

hmmmm, aren't they heaven?!
they're like super duper ex but super fuckin duper yummy.
of course i'd feel guilty eating it so i'll just safe keep it for future times of crisis. (like if the Internet is down or something along there) . only thing is the freakin tub cant fit the mini fridge(for frozen food compartment) in my room and i would walk all the way to the kitchen. hahahhahahahahahha, how cool is it that i have a minibar in my room. be jealous.

hahahahhahahahha.
i reactivated my twitter so follow me kay.
tweet tweet.

i miss adhe :(

2010-05-23T12:05:00.002+08:00

i wanna post so maanyyy pictures, so many things to say! FUCK. can you guys stop hunting us down? it pisses me off a hell lot. i can't do things the way i do because of all you fucking kpos. get a life ok, there's no story.

2010-05-21T17:05:00.002+08:00

omgomgomg, aren't they pretttyyyyy?
i painted my nails this way and had to remove it the very next day.
why? because of some stupid oral that i forget.
grrrr, hard work down the drain.

i private my blog before for some personal reasons. i didnt even update it. lol. so don't take it too personally if i didn't invite you. i only invited myself. hahaha, no point lah. still didnt write anything.

i got back my exam results and it's baddd. i hope my parents don't kill me. chinese intensive week started today but i didn't go school. wheeeeeeee. the medicine Dr Mah gave me makes me tremble. :/ one of the side effects.

okay bye.

2010-03-30T19:51:00.000+08:00

ten months and you know whaaat?

i'll tell you, it's going GGGGGREEAATT!

2010-03-21T11:14:00.003+08:00

WORST MARCH HOLIDAYS EVER.
~~don't~~ never ask why.

my babies

2010-03-17T19:14:00.003+08:00

WANNA ADOPT MY CATS? :)

2010-03-17T12:25:00.006+08:00

my brother attended the meet-the-parent session and as always, they don't believe we're siblings. another assumed that he was my boyfriend, wow. my results were okay, except for chinese of course. i just hate it so much and stop nagging about how important chinese is! leave me alone 'nia'. hahaha, sorry for the late late late update. more to come for sure! x
-

i have a friend. she is weird but still i love her to pieces. i will write more about you next time, i'm out of words ;)

she had breakfast where they first met. more importantly, she had breakfast with him.

2010-03-05T18:17:00.002+08:00

we had bedok town's last match today and we won 4-1 to AES. they were really nice, especially the captain. though we don't qualify to the next round, was really honored as it's really bedok town's last national match. since we are combining with chai chee. i'd be out into a polytechnic by then. *hopes*

without training, i guess i have more time to focus on my studies since i've been released early these days for the matches. and it's been ages since i last met my babygirls. also the boys. bump into them once in a while. plan our next outing kayy. seems like i'm only the one that's having a major exam this year. shouldn't go out jalan-jalan. haha! wanna go to library sooon! didy! i can't borrow books cause your fine is waaayy overdued. settle it soon k? :)

p/s; i really need to filter my facebook's friend list :o

so much to do, so little time.

2010-03-01T20:09:00.005+08:00

Happy nine months, love. X

i wish to break this hiatus. i'm growing bored of studying(not that i've been doing much) and would like to keep this space alive so as not to kill myself with boredom. gahhh!

lots of test, lots of work and i'm soooo lagging behind! i can't complain much as i chose this path. it's just so unbelievable that i'm taking my 'o' levels! have to put in the effort, have to have to.

the tournament is coming to an end, MAYBEEE. which prolly gives me time to brush up on my subjects. and maybe concentrate a tad bit more on my chinese and actually really really TRY the paper. it's in MAY! will try to update my site at least once a week. continue reading my faithful readers!

till my next, x

2010-01-09T17:39:00.001+08:00

sometimes they come back. other times, they don't.

2010-01-06T21:06:00.001+08:00

i'd be busy this year with school, so let's leave my blog dead till the end of the year.

2010-01-03T22:21:00.003+08:00

you lift my feet off the ground,
you spin me around.
you make me crazier, crazier.

For you, C.

2009-12-30T18:45:00.002+08:00

i thought you understood. i mean, did you really say that? do you think i'm making excuses? yeah, it'd be tough but i'm willing to. why not? i have commitments too, some that are more important. so you really saying i'm lousy? huh? i really don't have much to say to you. i bet when i see you, you're gonna give me the hardest time possible. i bet, so much, that you're gonna embarrass me. you don't believe me, do you? i may not be the best but i put in my effort. like seriously, i don't know what else to say. that hurts. real bad.

2009-12-29T19:36:00.003+08:00

this is really irritating me. stop going on saying Sylvia should be the one and not Sezairi. like seriously, people keep saying this just because this year we have a female finalist. everyone knows the vote counts. you don't vote, tada, she doesn't win. like, come on! even if Sylvia won, i wouldn't mind cause both of them are really awesome and i like Sylvia too. so stop it, really! what happened to sportsmanship?!

2009-12-29T00:47:00.002+08:00

so i went for the grand finale of Singapore Idol and yes, it's yet another malay dude that won. the atmosphere of the stadium was more happening than the usual studio at mediacorps. and i really wish i was at the moshpit. pictures more in facebook, check 'em out yo. i'm sezairifieeedddd :P

cicik is in singapore now, that's that.

and i want to wish my babyboyyy a very very very happy seven monthsary and those coming. i would insert a really cooool recent picture of us here but he's been away for months now. see you january sweetheart. kangen x

( i waannaa meet my babygirls sooon )

2009-12-25T21:47:00.001+08:00

it just doesn't feel like christmas.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2009-12-25T11:01:00.003+08:00

i woke up today with the sun beaming through the window even though it's just nine in the morning. it hurts real bad and i had this headache. the only thing that made it all better was that dad found this iPod touch and he's giving it to me. YAY. give someone else my ipod shuffle then. so i stumbled out of bed, into the bathroom and all i see were doubles. argh, how suck-ish.

there's this video in the ipod that i've been watching, it's called entourage. i heard of it but never actually took the time to watch. and so, i did. it's goooooooodd! funny tooo. there are two seasons in it. so like seriously, yay. had to stop at like just the third episode cause my eyes started to hurt again and i'm afraid the battery would run out. hmmph, i don't have the charger. ipod shuffle's charger is so way different. like, way way. :P

so gonna stop and have my breakfast now. Merry Merry Christmas to all!

2009-12-24T21:44:00.002+08:00

i'm tired, like seriously. i'm tired of being the responsible one. i'm tired of my daily routine. i'm tired of this house. i'm tired of the mess. i'm tired of pretending. i'm tired of people being a big know-it-all when in actual fact they don't have the slightest clue. i'm tired of this laggy laptop. i'm tired of having nothing to do. i'm tired of being restless when you're not around. i'm tired of doing things i'm expected to.

i'm tired of waiting, i'm tired of hoping, i'm tired of wishing. i'm tired of waiting for tomorrows.

2009-12-22T22:03:00.000+08:00

i want to sleep at 238, you know why.
yes, YOU.

2009-12-21T20:14:00.003+08:00

so, bridging course started today. had english and mathematics with a thirty minute break in between. and guess how boring that is. Zzzz. 4A1 and 4A5 this year would be combined into one class, 5A1. if bbygirl got through, we would be in the same class together! imagine that, being in the same class for our first and last yeaar in Bedok town. 1A2 & 5A1, heh. but cheer up bby. ITE is not that bad too, they offer like tons of courses. take something you're interested in :)

i'm gonna like re-format and update my ipod before next year starts and my earpiece is with adhe. my nice green earpieceeeeee. nice kan b? :) i hope he's enjoying himself there, with snow. ahhh, niceeeee. he's dropping his driving application today, cool or whaaaaat! don't think too much of what's gonna happen the year after next year yeahh? you know what :) it's gonna be real tough but we'll manage. i love you. and update your facebook pictures laaaaaahhhh! x

2009-12-20T19:01:00.000+08:00

i swear, my parents are cute.

- i nak main internet laaaaaa-

2009-12-19T20:07:00.002+08:00

i've never thought in a million years that i would go through. that, i would receive my 'N' level results knowing i qualify for secondary five to take 'O' levels. i am F-ing proud. i'm happy. i'm dancing-on-air happy. or adhe would say, dancing-the-undanceable-dance happy, :) okay, i don't think there is such a word. so bridging course starts monday, BOOO! wait, so all this while we've been celebrating more homework and stress?

-

I NEED TO GET THE F OUT OF THIS HOUSE. NO IDEA HOW THAT'S GONNA HAPPEN. I CAN'T TAKE THE MESS. AND IF YOU SAY IT'S MY MESS, I DON'T HAVE A PLACE TO PUT IT. AND IF YOU SAY I CAN JUST PUT IT SOMEWHERE NEATLY, TO HELL WITH THAT. I'VE DONE IT. I CANT TAKE PEOPLE REPLACING MY SHIT SOMEWHERE ELSE. AND USING WITHOUT PERMISSION AND NOT PUTTING IT BACK. ALONE OR NOT, I AM GOING TO 238 TO STUDY NEXT YEAR. I KNOW YOU READ MY BLOG. BYE.

after a long one.

2009-12-16T20:55:00.009+08:00

the crappy days are gone now, i think. i'm starting to accept the fact and just see how everything goes. to occupy myself tonight, i did some webcam action with my sister that is withstanding the temperature of over 39 degree celcius over in Melbourne. HAH! and of course, to calm my nerves before the N Level Results Day in like two days. ARRGGHHHH! the suspense!
click to enlarge, i like the last one. HAH

HAHA, nothing better to do eh. i don't care if there's any repeats. i'm just to lazy. so, we're gonna do more of this as i'm bored out of wits everytime Adhe is out of the country. going out with my babygirls are just fine, but i don't wanna go out to much. i've got my grandmother to nurse and i'm proud of it :D

so, while we were taking those pictures(HEHE), it's snowing in London. how bloody unfair is that? the only snow i've experienced is what, snow city? haha, how pathetic is that! even hidayah has been to London! Karla said i should come. I've been talking alot to her and it really lightens my mood about the whole crappy thing that's been bugging me. i'm not telling just yet. :P

and the idea of becoming an only child is quite.... interesting. but i don't know what my mother's deal is. one time she'd be laughing, the next minute she'd be injecting some sacarsm that i might say, hurts. okay whatever. HAH, i'm done and wow. this is like the most proper update i've done in god knows how long. just a lil pictures to what i've been up to to end this entry.

more at facebook.
so cute and chubbbyyyyy!he wants the cake. badly.

2009-12-12T10:33:00.000+08:00

i miss you, boyfriend♥
come back sooonn.

2009-12-11T12:44:00.003+08:00

i've been feeling alot crappy these days, but a lot less when i chat with sufi. haha, he's a really funny dude and i just can't not laugh whenever i talk to him. to think he's been waiting for my lemon tree song every morning. HA-HA, i'll let mimi have the fun biting you awake one morning.
so many things in my head, so many things to think of. i don't wanna tell anyone just yet. it's not gonna help, so why should i? i know myself. but i'm slowly feeling better. heh, slowly but surely.

(you look funny)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNUGERAH!
i couldn't find any ben 10 card here in singapore.
sorry :/
hope you'd have fun this sunday.
don't eat too much cake bibi.
x

2009-12-10T23:09:00.001+08:00

baby, i'm cold.

where do i go?

2009-12-08T20:38:00.005+08:00

i didn't thought i would go back to square one. those crying, hoping and hard wishing moments. i thought that that's a phase i won't go back to. but maybe it's not done with me yet. it's just so, hard! i never wanted you to go but i have to be strong for you kan. to make things easy for you. cause it's hard enough you have to make THE decision. it's better isn't it, for so many reasons. but i just can't help it. i try to not lose myself, to keep myself occupied with so many things. to think about happy things. but my mind goes negative and think about the time when i would lose them all. i'm too attached to you, i love you. just the possible risk of losing you makes me go crazy. it cuts me deep. make it stop. make the pain go away. i beg you.

life's waiting for you on the other side. it's a bitch, it has always been.
i agree with nathan now.

2009-12-06T09:01:00.002+08:00

so i slept over efa's last night. using hers/ali's computer now. but she wasn't here when i slept over. huh. i accompanied hidayah, which is one of my relatives from malaysian.

i really don't have much to say, updating for the sake of it. will really update you on other shit soon. so till then, x

2009-11-29T12:10:00.003+08:00

thankyou, thankyou, thankyou.
for everything. for how patient and understanding you were. i don't have to say this all over again, but one thing for sure. i'll never let you go. okay cukup, balik cepat cepat laaa. i da email you, cute kan :P

and to my abangmin, have fun in langkawi plus KL, don't forget my souvenirs!
safe safe trip, :D

2009-11-27T12:25:00.001+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI :D

2009-11-24T21:19:00.000+08:00

fuck all the 'if onlys' in life. fuck them all.

2009-11-24T20:53:00.002+08:00

making mistakes is becoming our everyday norm. it is agreed that no one is perfect, no matter how hard you try. funny how thankful you are of some mistakes that makes you what/where you are today. and some mistakes you try to erase with all your heart. you wish with all your might that you'll forget it as time pass. and that no matter how far you run, it keeps coming haunting you.

bullshit.

2009-11-23T21:07:00.001+08:00

the previous entry was obviously not me! hmmph, time to change my password!

The truth, revealed.

2009-11-23T14:16:00.001+08:00

Ali, Mudzamir and Ameerah rocks! They are fucking hot! WHOO!

meet fighter, everyone.

2009-11-21T12:01:00.001+08:00

okay, not everyone. you get me :DD

life's a bitch

2009-11-21T11:44:00.003+08:00

i'd take it back if i could. it's too late. when you think you've got everything, think again. i don't know what i see in you. i should have known, i should have listened harder. it's too late now, isn't it? i fucking wish i've fucking known. to think i would have thought that there was no one as good as you. fuck you, everything about you.

on a different note, i've leveled up in fishville. okay whatever.

2009-11-20T10:52:00.000+08:00

a life taken, just like that.

rest in peace, sakai.

ignorance is bliss

2009-11-18T13:14:00.003+08:00

okay so here's the question, what do you want from me?

something i have that you don't have, perhaps? let it go, will you? i don't see what you can possibly achieve by tagging stuff that clearly does not affect me in any way. some would probably say it hurts, even though they deny. but honestly, to me, i couldn't care less. it really just shows how low you are.

so please, leave me and my tag board alone. i don't need you to leave your shit here. the game's getting old, baby.

2009-11-16T20:27:00.000+08:00

i wish you wouldn't need to go.

to my queen.

2009-11-16T14:43:00.003+08:00

(taken at pulau ubin, i look awful)

HAPPY SIXTEEN, MY DARLING!
you have been the best, never fail to make me laugh my fat ass off.
i love you!
:D

this entry is for kakak and cicik.

2009-11-15T10:49:00.003+08:00

have you guys met my, ehem, uncle?
hahahaha, that's uncle izzan.
and he's full of candy :D

headline news

2009-11-15T10:15:00.002+08:00

guess what?
i'll tell ya, i dropped my phone in the toilet bowl.
swwweeetttttt.

" my only nightmare would be losing you. "

2009-11-14T17:53:00.005+08:00

okay, so i got really bored and revamped my skin. it may not be the best, but what the heck. everyone is out, except for the adults. i have reciting class in an hour, so gonna get ready.

and guess what,
am having a conversation with the adults over tea.
waaaaa, my life couldn't get any better.
whatever.

2009-11-14T15:14:00.003+08:00

i hate it when people think they know everything about you when in fact, they really don't. when they look at you and judge you and makes you feel like shit in their eyes.
and you know what, these people should fuck themselves.

2009-11-12T19:23:00.002+08:00

*dust off cobwebs*

i haven't been updating regularly as i should have. i'm not THAT busy, i'm just lazy. but i have alot of things on my hands too(k laa, tak banyak sangat).

so, have been a good granddaughter sending and making sure my grandmother is attending her appointments and stuff. hi-5 ameerah. i may not be the best but i am trying my best.

okay, so that's very short. but I DON'T CARE ANYMOOOREEEE(evil bunny style). slumber party at efa's wiv the rest. baby's having his own. ahaha.

so, byeeee!

2009-10-29T23:19:00.005+08:00

you know you still have hope when things have been going way down and everyone else seems to be disagreeing with you. the things they do that makes you smile harder each day. like, how you know there will be gossip-and-ice-cream sessions after a tearful break-up, to make you forget. like, how they try to make jokes that's so bad you've gotta laugh. like, how you can drag them to go on search for your latest must-have and they don't seem to mind. like finally, you feel that you've lived half your life.

i celebrated my best friend's(even now 'best friend' sounds like an understatement) sixteen birthday. and even though it wasn't the big hu-ha, we managed to make great fun out of it. my girlfriends are the best and i wouldn't trade them for anyone else.
" they've got a million ways to make me laugh. "

it has been a rocky start with many complications. through all of those many times, you stood by me. waiting, and just waiting. I'm thankful for everything you've done for me. those surprises and dates :D i love them all. there's always so many ideas, so many things you wanna do. that slingshot is still there in our to-do list. you're the sweetest, i have to admit. my heart still do that thing whenever i see you. we've come this far, and we'll go further. you have been, by far, my favourite.

i love you, happy fifth monthsary b.
<3

2009-10-24T16:14:00.004+08:00

i have been seeing him more than usual these days. not just him, a whooping 5-7 days of quality time with his friends which consist of mostly sing star, fight night(which i so own him in), lots of food and a tad bit of bitching with the girls. ahh, what a great feeling knowing i could get along with his friends, especially the girls. they aren't so bad actually, *smiles*.

okay, so here's the thing. he has been contemplating about how he should style his hair like. so finally, taddaaa! ashok has been persuading him not to cut it, much less, shave it. and he was having second thoughts(ridiculous, yet so adorable). but HA HA HA, he did it. *thumbs up!* i still love you the same if not more.

2009-10-19T22:49:00.003+08:00

i hardly need it but,
give me a break please.

you always make me feel better.
i fall in love with you over and over again.

maybe if i stop trying to be perfect.

2009-10-16T13:38:00.008+08:00

N LEVELS ARE OVER!
(fine, so i may be a little late on the update.)

though my N level's papers are over, i still have O level's elementary mathematics. i've been going for school while all my other mates are slacking at home. hmmph! but i guess it'll be easier for me if i get promoted to secondary five next year(i hope!). so since it's over, i'd rather not talk about it anymore. so much to do.

1. i've always been wanting to earn my own money. so it's time! i wanna wooorrrrkkkk! i'll keep you updated on this. cause i'm still hunting for one.

2. roller-blading with Gabriel! he's been asking me since the start of the year, and it's always last minute! so we will go gabriel, one fine day. lol!

3. swimming. ahhhhhhh, haven't been in the pool for soooo loonggg! trina, let's go swimming please!

4. sleep less. party more. i've always been turning in so early cause i was afraid i wouldn't be able to wake up for school the next day. no more school, more late nights!

so many more! so i'll take one step at a time. (:

2009-10-10T11:02:00.003+08:00

HAPPY SIXTEEN!

this girl here, forever have story to share. here's to watching NC16's movies and our four years of friendship. happy birthday eh ita. :P

2009-09-28T23:41:00.002+08:00

it's me against the fucking world.

I'll start off by simply saying, i hate you. i hate everything about you! by how you think, how you dress yourself, how you speak. i hate you from your strands of spiky hair to your last fucking toe nail. however, there are things that I'll have you take credit for. like say, thanks for making me wiser and less breakable. for making me see the mistakes I've been doing and realising how it's suppose to be. you may have run away with it, but you just wait and fucking see. you didn't deserved it, you hear me? i don't even know what makes me go for you in the first place. but honestly dude, I'm doing fine without you. i don't understand how it WAS a two-way thing. you think i would never find someone like you, hell no i won't. but i found someone better. that's something you have to deal with, stop being in denial. fuck you and everything about you.

(I'm being vulgar, but so what?)

2009-09-25T23:04:00.002+08:00

it's funny when the person who makes you smile, is the same person that makes you break down.

2009-09-19T18:30:00.003+08:00

i am finally gonna update my blog. though i told haqim zailani that i'll do it ninth October, i just can't wait. haha! truth, i'm just plain bored. will link everyone on ninth October. kaykay, promise. :P

yesterday was babyboy's birthday, will celebrate it wiv me when you come back kan?!

in advance, i wish all muslims selamat hari raya!

(i know, i know. it's a bloody short post.)

2009-08-29T13:02:00.002+08:00

you're probably wondering why I've not posted any updates. my laptop is kind of 'under the weather'. till it's working again, I'll be mugging for my social studies examination.

happy three months, there will be so much more.

2009-08-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

This is gonna sound so random,

but i miss you so much already.

2009-08-19T18:04:00.002+08:00

right, so it has really been a while since i've last updated my site. i'm finally done wiv my prelims exams, hoping to score well! will go to school friday for the sake of results. would prolly fail combined humanities but not as bad. i don't have anything to say for chinese.

soooo.... fasting month starts this saturday. selamat berpuasa ;D

i don't wanna suprise you

2009-08-15T22:11:00.001+08:00

Click for NDP'09 pictures.

2009-08-05T23:30:00.001+08:00

my definition of love, you.

Your voice, is the soundtrack of my summer.
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder.
Your eyes, are the brightest of all the colors.
I don't wanna ever love another.
You'll always be my thunder.
x

2009-08-01T17:19:00.002+08:00

merger of bedok town sec and chai chee sec
regarding this merge, i'm really neutral about it, as i'd be out and gone by then. though both schools would have problems fitting in or whatever. it'll be doubly hard for those from chai chee, as they would be leaving their school. it's really those from chai chee that would be more affected. they'll feel the pinch, and not really us. by us not welcoming them, we're actually making it harder. still, both school shouldn't shoot each other with vile comments or what-nots, as seen on stomp. so, welcome chai chee peeps in 2011 (: hoping to know how it goes.

2009-07-31T19:52:00.002+08:00

i can't take this anymore. i feel like giving up. i wanna stop time, just so i could get a lil breather. i hate this part.

2009-07-25T23:50:00.002+08:00

last year was a surprise, it was shared with the most important person(at that time). this year was also a surprise, and it was the best. i mean it.

thanks to those who've put alot of effort in it. i know who you are, (: thanks for those who dropped their other plans just to be with the rest of us. thanks to those who tried to be there but couldn't. really, really, REALLY, thank you for everything, everyone. i love you guys.

i was kinda disappointed when you guys weren't there. we're different not eyy. guess that there wasn't any 'us' before. maybe it was just my imagination. still, thanks for the memories. five.

2009-07-22T17:34:00.001+08:00

twenty-days. see you.

2009-07-12T15:22:00.004+08:00

untitled.

sometimes when i look like i don't give a shit, i actually do care. reminiscing the last three years I've had, I'd smile. and the only reason i did, is because both of you were part of it. from the day we started talking, to the day we became the best of friends. we were one, nothing could bring us down. we would always be together, wherever we were. indeed, we were inseparable.

now, look what's happened. they say friends come, friends go. but little did i expect that you would leave. sometimes i wonder if it's possible to be back to how we were before. i would always look at you, from an angle so far. observing you, the way you speak, the way you bring yourself. it's so much different. that's not the girl i know. sometimes i wonder, was it our fault that you've became what you are now. it pains me seeing you like this. it pains me every time i enter my room and take in the picture of us, framed on my dressing table. it was one of the best days we had; playing in the rain. i would so silently laugh to myself thinking about how that day has put the smiles on our faces. so memorable that we've made that silent park echo with our laughs and screams of joy. our memories are overwhelming. but would i ever get that day back, rather than reliving it through snapshot pictures in my mind?

we've missed you, but what's happened to you?

it is proven that within time, things change. feelings grow, feelings fade. friends come, some may go. people change, for the better and for the worst. have you ever just stared into space, thinking about how you got to where you are now? how you've changed from an innocent honest kid, to a rebellious teen? people often say that they would wanna turn back time, to make things right. but if we do, how do we ever learn? we learn through mistakes, not nagging/lectures. and these mistakes are the world's best lessons. they are lessons i will never forget.

i thank you, for everything baby. for being so patient towards me. and i promise, i will cut down on the being-unreasonable-and-spoilt. (: thank you too, mum. for accepting me for who i am. my mood swings and everything. thank you everyone else, like abangfawwaz, for never failing to make me smile and teasing me.

N level prelims are in a month, the pressure's getting to me.

2009-07-09T18:56:00.001+08:00

my blog would be dead.
i'm busy with a million things,
regards, me.

2009-07-07T19:32:00.003+08:00

we've been through so much to get where we are now. and now that we're finally here, i never wanna go any place else without you.

i love you.

2009-07-04T11:47:00.000+08:00

moodswings, that's the way i am
how long would you be able to tolerate?

2009-07-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

transformers ;D

ahh, too lazy to update. i'll let it rot.

2009-06-29T00:01:00.000+08:00

eighty-eight.
a month old.
i love you <3

2009-06-27T18:58:00.002+08:00

i'm suppose to be updating, but i don't feel like it.

2009-06-24T22:58:00.000+08:00

it would be another boring week. save me.

2009-06-24T12:44:00.004+08:00

reality starts to kick in.

okay(abang fawwaz's style to start an entry). school would be starting this Monday, sadly with no extended vacation. there wasn't any use of doing that poll on channelnewsasia when it's not of any use. pshk! Ive not done any June assignments. especially my math. so, would obviously be burning the midnight oil on the last day of holiday. lol, wonder how I'm gonna finish 6 maths assignments, plus an additional 1/4 inch booklet from intensive holiday programme(which my attendance was 1/3), social studies structured essays(eh?), one whole book of previous years Chinese examination papers, English(it's easy, too lazy). no science, boo! lol, bet bby is already finishing his. that's another 'pshk!'.

he would be like back tomorrow, at 11pm. maaaybbbeeeee. lol, macam finally gitu kan! lama pulak tu. hehe. his Malay is improving tremendously. abey suka ah dia. haha (: not too sure about this Saturday though, shashey. wondering how's bbygirl doing.

soo anwww, balik-ing kampung was fun. will try to visit them every time i get a chance to. of course, it'll be hard as Abah would be busy working.

also, i went to pulau ubin yesterday! with my dear Chinese class's classmate. lol? heh, it was so fun ah. my trinanna helped me overcome my phobia, but not for long! haha. honestly, though only like five if us went, it was fun-er than the one i went with 05. no offence eh korang. we cycled around, going through routes that were in the forest. lol, had dinner near the beach at the end. cycled again, like for so long. parked out bikes outside and went in the forest. find durians and rambutans. it's legal, okay? ;p we took like an hour to get the rambutans from the trees. after our huge attempt, we managed to get like six rambutans only! lol. you should have seen our faces when only one fell. lol. we've got like two durians, that were said yummy. i don't eat durian. so i ate like all the rambutans instead. haha! soo many more happened. not giving it as detailed as i've gotta rush back to 238. haha.

makdek just reminded me that it's exactly one month to my birthday. yay, like the favourite day of the year! it was great fun last year, celebrating it with aisyah and afiqah together with you-knows. had like three cakes last year. two from mom. cause apparently, when she was giving birth to me, it took like two trays as i only wanted to come out after the doctor called it a day and went home. lol, that explains my degil-ness. maybe..

lol, so anyway. my wish list, anyone? LOL(:

(1) F-R-E-E-D-O-M!
mummy, please? ;D
(2) a very nice, chic bathrobe. the one like makdek's pink towel. hee.
so i would stop leaving the bathroom with a towel wrapped around me just like that. ciktok hates it.
(3) kachinng!
duh! ;p
(4) anklet.
my previous one broke. ;(
(5) more novels!
though it won't be a good idea, as i would get distracted.
(6) FREEDOM!
did i say that already?
(7) my very own camera, yay!
so i won't have to keep using Along's.
(8) new phone, as my phone dah macam apa.
abah, pleeeeaaasssseeee. nokia N97! if anyone gets it before me, i hate you. lol, i like anything topslide actually. lol, okay father?
(9) running shoes.
i don't own one. hahaha, very funny.
(10) that billabong beach bag i saw with ameerah.
doubt she remembers it. the yellow on at tampines..... remember? lol.
(11) cute skirt in Seventeen mag.
it is just very cute!
(12) this very cute dress.
ameerah, bbygirl remembers this. ALANO. haha.
(13) havaianas slippers.
my strap broke. stupid 60bucks slipper, but it's so comfortable than crocs! i hate crocs.

okay, I'll stop here.

hold on a little longer

2009-06-16T16:25:00.001+08:00

this..

and this..!

life couldn't get any better.

2009-06-15T13:06:00.002+08:00

http://www.mymilktoof.blogspot.com
this is what i read, to kill time.

tak sabar nak balik kampung!

2009-06-14T19:05:00.000+08:00

i miss adhe ;(
we're halfway through this.
;D

2009-06-12T19:37:00.003+08:00

i'm eating oatmeal.

the day is boring me.

so will the two weeks be.

i need a new hobby.

trinana, go swimming? haha.

you back from malaysia, text me?

mwaah.

2009-06-12T17:34:00.002+08:00

kinder bueno, please?

2009-06-12T13:51:00.002+08:00

first to come, first to leave. i'm just glad to have showered you with my care and affection. and that, you weren't alone during your last second. we'll miss you, dearly.
-uno.

it's been like one heck of a week for me. cleaning for three days, living room still not done. mu'az is being sucha pussy for not helping with the cleaning. whatever. malas nak layan.

was suppose to go out with my two babygirls. i changed and was ready buuutttt, i couldn't find the house key. again, mu'az is being sucha pig not helping me find it. irresponsible _________________. i could go on for days swearing him, but it's not so appropriate then swearing here.so, had to reluctantly cancel meet-up with them :( sedih. but, shashey was being sucha sweetie. sorry eh, kalau you da siap all. (: she planned for me, her, nash and Jayy&Adhe go out together on the 27th. cause then, bby would be back here. taaapii, tengok first okay? (: hahha, love my two babygirls :D

starting on my assignments cause bby starting on his. don't want to be stuck with homework when he's back. fourteen more freaking days.x

2009-06-10T21:15:00.002+08:00

should be starting on my assignments. but this budak degil still shaking leg at home. tsktsk, N level this year alyaa atiqah!

2009-06-09T10:33:00.004+08:00

three down, seventeen to go.

yesterday, i had a movie marathon with Aqilah and Nadia. it was good fun. would have been better if Efa was there. but i can't possibly sponsor you TWO movies kan? haha, sorry. so, first movie was Hannah Montana:The Movie. it was gerek! lol! though i think it was kinda short. it was awesome, nonetheless. ANNDD, to think that Ali watched it in the theatres with his friends. the guys that were in the theatre was accompanied by the family or girlfriends. come to think of it, it'd be weird kan to see a guy watch it with a group of guyfriends? haha, macam nak kenakan Ali. so next movie, it was Night At The Museum 2. BESSTT :D watched it with makdek, smalleyes, nadia, aqilah, along, ajin and muaz. haha. okay dah. so sedih abang Fawwaz have work on that day.

anyway, reached home and tuition teacher was there! WHAT THE.. haha, whatever. after tuition, chit-chatted and proceed to Efa's house to sleep over. LOL, was suppose to stay up and watch DVD with her. :P but i didn't. so did aqilah. haha, slept like so early. and i woke up SOOOO EARLY!!

so I'm gonna finish off my packing by this afternoon, go 238 and sleep there for the night. of course, will clean up today and tomorrow. it will be homework day this Thursday(hopefully!) and meet babygirl and shashey this Friday, bake cookies. lol, carik ingredients this Thursday skali laa. hahaha (: or friday. :P

okay bye, I'm boring you with this post.

N level is in two-three months. Having orals in July. and i'm still at home, shaking my leg. baik.

2009-06-07T00:29:00.005+08:00

i cannot sleep, i miss boyfriend :(

tagged by: arab, arab, arab :P
(1) besides lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
forehead baby. (:
(2) how do you feel when you woke up this morning?
my eyes hurt from the sun beaming through the window :(
(3) who was the last person you took photo with?
afiqah :D teaching her to smile, haha.
(4) would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
yes :D
(5) would you ever donate blood?
yes, i will. betuuuulll :D
(6) have you ever had a bestfriend who was the opposite sex?
lol, durr. first guy-bestfriend, shafiq haziq (: ntah dia menghilang kemana sekarang
(7) do you want someone dead?
yes, please!
(8) what does the last message says?
razlee- this 16 june plak, hamizan ada chalet pat downtown.. wanna follow? nash will be following too.
hahaha, lol (:
(9) what are you thinking right now?
thinking of how long more i have to go till this quiz is done. dur?
(10) do you wish someone with you right now?
*screams* yes!
(11) what time you went to bed last night?
uhm, one twenty three in the morning.
(12) where did you buy the t-shirt that you're wearing right now?
lol, i really don't know who this adidas shirt belongs too :X
(13) is someone in your mind?
always, and forever <3
(14) who was the last person who text you?
razlee
(15) 10 people tagged to do this quiz.

(1) kakak.
(2) aqilah.
(3) efa.
(4) bbygirl.
(5) syiraabby.
(6) lyshabby.
(7) makdek.
(8) zata.
(9) afiqah.
(10) nadia.

(16) who is 2 having relationship with?
LOL, single. buuuuttt, gimme an 'A'! gimme an 'N', muahahahah :P
(17) is 3 male or female?
female, obviously. unless....
(18) if 7 & 6 get together, would it be a good thing?
i don't think so. the age gap. and 7 is getting married!
(19) what is 1 studying about?
*proudly say* PHYSIOTHERAPY!
(20) when was the last time you had chat with 5?
it's been long. i miss her. :(
(21) is 4 single?
unavailable. insanely in love with JH! <3
(22) say something about 2?
irritating.
(23) what do you think of 3 & 6 being together?
LOL, you sure?
(24) what will you do if 6 & 7 fight?
why would they?
(25) do you like 3?
jyeah! through everything! unlike somebody...